My client Julia was 27 when her parents divorced. She had no idea there were problems big enough to end the marriage over. She felt like her entire childhood had been a lie. She was really struggling trusting herself after realizing her experience was not what she thought it was.

It might be better for very young children who never really had the familiarity of having one house with access to both parents every day. But even they can end up struggling with the fall out, especially if their parents don’t get along.

I can still remember the day my dad told me and my sisters that he was leaving. I knew that everything wasn’t perfect between my parents, but this came out of the blue for me. I remember thinking it must be my fault. If I hadn’t fought with one of my sisters so much, he wouldn’t be moving out. Taking the blame is common for children.

And their split impacted how I behaved in my later romantic relationships. I was both insecure about my worth and terrified of being left again. I mean, if I wasn’t good enough for my dad to stay, what man would want to. So I alternated between holding on too tight and pushing my partners away.

I knew they would eventually leave. It wasn’t an “if” but a “when”. So I would do things to make that happen. 

My parents both moved on to other partners, but I was picking up the pieces for years. And even though I have been in a good marriage for 36 years, the fear of being abandoned again hasn’t ever really gone away.

From the outside, it looks like I have overcome the pain of my parents divorce. And most of the time I have. But there are still moments when that girl sitting at the kitchen table hearing her dad say goodbye is sitting at mine.

That is the legacy many children of divorce experience. And it continues through the generations.

If you want to change that legacy, then schedule a 5-Star Relationship Consultation today.